I’ll be the first to admitt that I’ve done several things in my life that I’m not proud of. From the few guys that I’ve slept with that I wish I could take back to those who I’ve let steal my heart. I’m not taking the easy way out. I look at my problems in the past right now and I realize that I need to reflect on them and move on because I can’t be perfect no matter how much people expect me to be.
Everyone keeps telling me that I need to do something for myself and stop worrying about love all the time. I can’t help it, I’m addicted to the feeling of love and the feelings of attraction. I’m constantly trying to impress everyone and in the long run I feel like shit because I know I can’t. And I can’t trust anyone either and it sucks that I don’t have that feeling where I can just tell someone all my secrets.
Recently everyone’s been trying to fight me just because I have my opinions of people and I talk freely about them. If you don’t want me to say mean things about you then don’t be an idiot. People are just afraid of who they are and don’t want to accept their faults. Can’t they just realize that everyone is going to talk about them? At least I’m not a pussy and I actually talk about them to their face.